23 Weeks - Tummy Mummy

There you have it. My humungous tummy at 23 Weeks. This will do lah ok? I am so huge now that I've become clumsier. Food keeps on falling all over my tummy. Sungguh tak Vogue!

And yes, I will get bigger, I know. Then how to walk eh like that? I told chubby that day I want a wheel chair. It's just too heavy to walk sometimes. Especially when I get the usual contractions.

Oh, we can see the baby kick now. Manje got shocked when the he kicked her hand this afternoon.

Celebrated My one and only princess Bday yesterday at Sentosa. Supposed to be 4th July lah. But everyone will be working that day. So we had an advanced bday for her.

That's just about updates I can give so far. Trouble still sitting on my shoulders, so I really cant tink or write more happy stuff at the moment...Sorry Da Tao!

22 weeks - After a long week break..

Ok I've been bad at this huh.

No tummy pic update, no update.

The big rock burden is still on my shoulder. So dats why I dont feel like writing. But I gots to. I know!

Was on a long week break since last Thurday. Manje's 21st & Aripo's Proposal had been a success. I feel so deprived from not being able to party like them. Damn it! LOL! Will be back to work tomorrow.

So my new sorrow of the week will be rashes under my boobies. They're getting too big now I suppose, plus the freaking hot weather now. It looks just like nappy rash. So irritating and gatal!

My da tao now is 500gram and my weight now is 74.9kgs. FCUK! That's anothe 1.9 kg gain! Ok lah not as much as it was last mth. I tink someting is wrong with the machine lah.

I can walk much easily now. I tink the baby and my uterus have finally gone up to a comfortable position. But sometimes when I walk too fast, I'll get cramps on my tummy. The Jackos was quite worried looking at me last week being very lincah and all with the cooking and arrangments. I just cannot sit still lah. Feel so ackward and useless. Besides I feel fine.

So another week past and soon I'll be in my T3. Woo hoo!

Ok I promise to take a pic of now my big tummy and boobs and upload the my Da Tao Scan.

22 weeks 6 days

498grms

21 Weeks - Still not in a chirpy self

So I missed last week's update..

Just in no mood to write coz I have a big big problem sitting on my head right now. Nothing much to update also. Just same old same old. Heartburn, back ache, heart burn, eh I mention that already eh?

Just that I notice my tummy is getting smaller.

Ok usually when I'm not pregnant, when I'm this stressed out, I will lose weight instantly. So I guess that's why.

No appetite to eat sometimes. I can even go without dinner at all. It's no good I know. But this prob is too much for me to handle.

2009 have not been such a good year after all. Haiz. Sometimes I wish I can just sleep and wake up when all the worries are gone.

2009 made me realise money can buy just about everything. You can even buy ppl whom never in your life you would have tot could be bought with money.

For this first time in my life, I am so angry with this person that I dont feel a single bit of guilt at all after the phone conversation, which was ended by chubby. Usually I will feel like shit. I will call or sms the person to apologize. But for the first time, I don't feel the need to apologize. For wat fuck?! I know I am not wrong.

That was when I realised that I can buy this person's symphaty and concern with money. Amazing, isnt it?

Today, by right I'll be 22 weeks, alhamdullilah. 18 more weeks to go. Yeay! I'm less than halfway there. Oh btw, I just came back from Prawning. Manje is now an expert at this. Unbelievable! And she's allergic to prawns. How ironic is that?

I'm angry, dissapointed, worry. Where's the happiness that I should be going thru?

I pity my Da Tao, who getting very active now. He's awake every 2 hours! Chia lat!

Sorry my sweet little pie. Mummy will try to be happier for you ok? Please pray for us for this great challenge to be over soon.

Dear God, please help....

20 weeks - Emotional Wreck

I've been wanting to write. But there's just so much to write till I don't know how to put it in words. Don't know where to start...

I've been an emo wreck.

I should be happy rite? But the ppl that are suppose to be happy with me are not doing their job that great.

I've always been strong and I want to be strong AND HAPPY. But why am I so weak this time? Damn it! I use to be good at hiding my emotions. Always potraying a happy chirpy me, no matter how big the problem is. But I'm falling to my knees...

NO! I must get up and face the world with confidence.

Yesterday, the worst happen. She kept blaming me. Blaming my mouth. Without even finding out wat actually happen, she called and shoot me straight in the ears. WTF! Then afterwards, watever words that comes out of my mouth are used back againts me. Even when her debate doesnt make any fucking sense. And I broke down, which I shouldnt have. But it was too much for me to take. To be accused of things I didnt do will always make me trip. On top of that blaming my condition for my behaviour! Unbelievable!

But I know now it's pointless. Whatever it is, she will still side dat asshole. Now I know better. So from today onwards, to hell with her and her pet. I couldnt care less. I have my own. You lead your life and I'll lead mine.

Oh btw I'm no more constipating. Yeha! Heartburn is still around. But I still wanna eat spicy. So now Aromag is my new BFF. Cant live without it. Well, at least there's a solution to it. For that, I'm HAPPY!

I'm halfway thru liao. 20 weeks down and 20 weeks to go. I'll survive. Insyallah!